Leo season is here and not a moment too soon. Cancer season was a real emotional soup huh? I've been thinking a lot about the balance of the self and social contracts. How do we take care of ourselves, not be totally selfish, and show up for others? My birthday was last Friday and it was kind of a weird one. Not gonna lie. I felt really inundated with people being well meaning but pretty selfish. It was a smidge of a bummer but really what was tough was trying to figure out what the message was. It did feel somewhat confrontational. A big ole YOU NEED TO LOOK AT THIS. I definitely want people to do right by themselves, but where's the line? I'm seeing I have to redefine my own boundaries and claim the spotlight when I truly want it. It's uncomfortable. It makes me squirmy. I just want to kind of lurk behind and watch things play out but that's also how you get lost in the shuffle and end up resentful.
Leo is my 5th house, pursuits of pleasure. It's what we do for fun, and I'm having my nodal return so I'm sitting here a lil nervous excited about what's about to go down. It's like the stage is being prepped I just have to be willing to step on to it. I've been doing all kinds of work looking at my relationship with my body, movement, pursuits of pleasure, and the senses. Looks like maybe I may have been prepping for the celestial events to come? Who knows. I'm going to just try to ride the wave as it all goes down.
In the meantime I made a playlist inspired by the sexy, it's a-ok to shine Leo vibes. We should all be brave lions this season and just see what happens...we might have fun.
Today is the solar eclipse New Moon in Pisces. New Moon's are fresh starts and eclipses really speed that process up. Pisces is a deeply emotional, dreamy sign. It's ruled by Neptune. I've always maintained what is best about me and what sinks me is Neptune. It's a big source of my creativity and intuition and my predisposition to seeing what people could be versus who they are and various addictions that range from harmless (wintergreen altoids) to maybe I should reign it in (candy, all of it).
The moon is so hot right now. Which I love. More and more people are paying attention to what has always been there, doing it's thing ruling and disrupting our live's tides. Working with clients one of the first things I suggest they do to reconnect with themselves or their intuition is to work with the moon. Setting intentions each New Moon helped me more then I can explain. It clarified so much and it showed me much more then any person could have.
This past month has been my first completely self employed. It's been kinda a wild ride. The whole month has felt like one long eclipse. What I have lost definitely no longer served me and I had no choice but to let go. Much like every New Moon I had to step into a void and plant seeds hoping they'll grow. They will. They are.
My days are weird, exciting, great and strange. I'm spending more time with my dog then I ever thought I would and she's both like hi, this is my time in the apartment and like oh cool we will never be apart ever. If she had her way I'd wear her in a baby bjorn in the shower. My life almost feels like a vacation because I am inspired more daily then I have been. Even just getting to be amongst the people and the city I love during the day feels like this incredible blessing. I'm less worried, and stressed then I was working at a corporation. I definitely have worries and stress, and daily I'm having to test my vulnerability, ability to ask for help, and trust support.
One of the things I love most in life is possibility. I love how much feels possible for me right now. It makes me see how much is possible for everyone. The things we afford ourselves, we afford others and vice versa. That feels good. Giving more room to grow to myself, gives more to those in my life.
My phone is basically my diary (like everyone else these days) below are some snaps that I think best encapsulate what I've been up to. I also made a playlist for the moon which makes me feel squirmy to put out there so that means I definitely should!
We're cruising through the doldrums of winter into the awakening of spring, hang in there everyone. We'll be growing soon.